17-Weeks Out

As much as I hate to admit it, I’m human.

I relied on a routine for years and it was great for my mental, physical, and emotional health, not just my body. When I moved to a completely new geographic region, my routine got completely messed up, I didn’t have access to a gym or a kitchen, and I found myself falling back into some bad habits- my workouts were sporadic as was my food prep and healthy eating plan.

I knew I would get a little messed up, but I just thought that I would be able to get right back at it, but that just hasn’t been so. My good habits were developed over a period of time, so were they lost over a- surprisingly short– period of time. I find myself having to struggle to reestablish those good habits again.

My family is normally very supportive of my goals, but they are having their own adjustment problems. My husband is working extra hours to become familiar with the people and procedures of a new site. My daughter has made some friends, but she is used to being able to get along with everyone and that’s not happening here. One little boy even calls her and “alien” because of her Texas accent. My son’s speech delay has made him very shy in his new classroom and he hasn’t been able to make very many friends either. He does say he has “girlfriends” though. I told him, “Girlfriends?!? I don’t think you know how this works. You’re only supposed to have one.” He smiled his crooked little smile and said, “You Mommy!” I may be in for trouble with him.

Moving has definitely been rough on everyone. But just when I start to feel sorry for myself and worry about my kids and their “moving pains,” my daughter will come home from school and say that she made a new friend. She’ll go on to tell me about the other girl that she sat next to at lunch that also got called and “alien” because of her accent.

D: “She moved from somewhere near India, mom, I think it starts with a P.”

Me: “Pakistan?”

D: “Yes! That’s it! She said she moved here because there were too many bombings close to where she used to live. Is that true? Does that really happen?”

Me: “Yes, sweetheart, unfortunately it does.”

I suddenly feel so grateful to be right where I am, in a place where my little girl has a hard time believing that anyone lives close to bombings. And I feel silly for worrying about such little things.

Then I start to think about everything that I have to be grateful for. Even though I have dealt with some minor health problems, a minor surgery (unrelated to the health problems), and a move since I competed last May, I have had many good things happen as well.

I used to be really hard on myself when I gained post-competition weight. I would look at myself in my current condition and compare it to pictures of myself on stage and think, “Ugh, what did I do to myself.” It wasn’t a healthy view point as I am not someone that can stay close to stage ready with any semblance of sanity. But it was just an outward reminder of my inner imperfections, and I just couldn’t cut myself any slack for those.

But the past few months I’ve had to. Thyroid and adrenal issues forced me to have to relax. Genetic testing helped me see certain issues that I was predisposed to- stomach problems, certain autoimmune conditions, and neurotransmitter imbalances (causing depression and anxiety)- so that I could stay in front of them. Small scars from a minor surgery (right on my abs!!!) have made me appreciate all that my body has done and still can do. Moving has forced me to get out of my routine and my comfort zone- and that’s where the growth happens.

Yes, sometimes we get knocked down- and have to get right back up. Sometimes stuff doesn’t go exactly as planned. It is okay if we don’t look like we’ve been photo shopped all the time- or at all for that matter. As a side note to that, I’ve been working on building up my glutes for a while and I’m finally starting to see some results. Even though they’re covered in some extra fat and even…gasp…cellulite…I find myself checking out my ass in the mirror and thinking, “hmm, that’s pretty awesome.” And I find myself looking forward to seeing the finished product at my next competition.

I took these check-in pictures for my coach at the beginning of January.

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I had some unrealistic expectations for myself at that time and I was hard on myself when I wasn’t able to just jump right back in. I didn’t give myself permission to do baby steps. In typical me style, if I couldn’t do it perfect, I wouldn’t do it at all. Crazy, huh?!?

So my second pictures were taken just this week.

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The only progress that was made was in my attitude. I am letting go of my need to be perfect and I’m just enjoying the process of getting back to the stage. I am accepting myself and the fact that I won’t always look like this:

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I’m about 17 weeks out from the upcoming Fitness Universe competition in June in Ft. Lauderdale. I have wanted to do this competition for a while but every year something has come up to make me unable to do it. I hope you’ll join me as I get back to the stage this year, and don’t take myself too seriously while doing it.

This year is my year- in more ways than one.

As my parting thought I wanted to share a song and video with you that has kind of become my theme song the past few months. It’s called Try by Colbie Caillat

Questions? Comments? Please let me know.


Goals, Goals, Goals

Dreams and TemptationsI’ve gotta tell you, I’ve been amazed at how time passes. It passes whether you pay attention or not. It passes whether you are looking forward to something in the future or dreading it.

Not even 12 weeks ago we were told (unofficially) that my husband was going to be transferred to the Chicago area. We arrived at our hotel 1 month ago so he could start his new position and our kids could start at their new schools. We closed on our house almost 2 weeks ago.

It seems unreal that things have happened so quickly. To say that I have been distracted is an understatement. But the time has still passed, right? I can’t get it back when it comes to my lack of sticking to my 80-90% clean diet- living in a hotel and trying to unpack all my household goods for the past month hasn’t helped, but it’s still on me. I can’t go back and do all of the things that I had wanted to do for my business. All I can do is get back on track now and go forward.

I love my new house (we’re almost all unpacked and put away now) and the area where we now live. My kids are getting used to their new school, my daughter is having a good time on her new (indoor for now) soccer team, and my husband found a track for my son to race go-karts (he’s getting one for his 7th birthday- gasp) in the spring.

Now I just need to get myself back on track…

Almost 11 weeks ago I had a minor surgery that prevented me from going to the gym for a couple of weeks. Then it was sporadic at best with Christmas and the move coming. I told myself that I would really focus and get back on track when we got moved. Well, then there was hotel living- and a hotel with a treadmill and elliptical for a fitness center. Then it was not having all of my fitness equipment unpacked yet and spending hours every day trying to get things put away where I wanted them. So many reasons to not workout that I developed a bad habit- of not working out or just half-a$$ing it. However, I’m slowly waking myself up from my workout “slumber” and rebuilding my good habits in going back to my off-season clean eating.

There are a few things that have happened recently to wake me out of my slumber. First, I am working with some incredible people, through my fitness and business mentor Cathy Savage, who are also trying to advance their businesses and their energy is contagious. I am forcing myself to set goals again and get things accomplished. I have a new quote as the background on my phone from Donald Trump. “Entrepreneurs: Whatever happens, you’re responsible. If it doesn’t happen, you’re responsible.” That about sums it up…

Second was the death of my classmate Greg Plitt.  He was part of the United States Military Academy Class of 2000 with me and while I didn’t know him very well, I knew of him and was proud of everything that he had accomplished. I was so shocked to hear of his death, but as I was looking back on all he had accomplished I was in awe of his dedication to his goals- it was evident in everything he did from West Point to the Army to his extreme focus after. He was truly motivational and just seeing all he had done made me want to get back to work.

Third, another of my classmates, Lisa Jaster, is going to do something that I had always thought I wanted to do when I was in the Army- she is going to be a part of the Army’s first class of women to go through Ranger school.  Only 62 women will be selected (of the 160 that made the first cut) to go through a class of about 300. I’ve seen how hard she’s been training- going to the range, doing tactics training, and going on long road marches with a 50 pound ruck sack on her back on the weekends. During the week she’s hitting the Crossfit classes, and jiu jitsu all while doing her regular day job, keeping up with Army Reserve training, and being a great mom to her two kids. Her training paid off in January when she was one of the first group of 40 women chosen to go through the Ranger Training Assessment Course. Only 26 accepted and 5 passed- she was the second. Make sure you keep your eye out for her in April when her class at Ranger school is supposed to start. She is truly an inspirational woman that has reminded me what happens when you chose a goal and devote yourself to it without letting anything get in your way.

So, I don’t know about you, but I’m done making excuses. Personally, I have decided that I want to compete this summer and I’m going to do the Fitness Universe show in Ft Lauderdale, FL. That means I have 19 weeks until I’m on stage again. My off-season diet has been more of an off-the-reservation diet. It’s hard for me to say that, but I have to confess that I’m human. I’m not some perfect trainer/ health coach robot. Even though I’m still considered off-season, because I’m not 12-weeks out yet, in my head- it’s on.

Professionally, I’m getting ready to start seeing clients one-on-one at a big local gym. It was hard for me to find one that I felt would be a good fit for me. Some were too impersonal while others seemed just awkward, but this one seems just right. I’ve also got some great online programs that I had put on the back burner due to the move, but I am now dusting them off and getting ready to get them started again. New programs will be coming in the Spring again that I’m already starting to work on.

What are your goals? Are you actively pursuing them or just getting through the day, week, or month? Are you using your time wisely or just letting it pass? Did you have the best of intentions with your New Year’s resolutions, but you haven’t been able to stick to them? Or you didn’t know how?

Let’s do this together! It’s so much better when you have a plan and a partner. Contact me now about working one-on-one or join one of my upcoming groups to get the support you need.

Questions? Comments? Please let me know!